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The Sparrow and the Hawk/El gorrión y el halcón

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The Sparrow and the Hawk
by LFD – aka mom

Running errands this morning, the sun is shining and feels good.
The price of gas made me actually plan the trip - fewest miles for what I needed.

High above the hill that is Glisan west to Fred Meyer,
A red-tailed hawk is being pursued by a tiny sparrow.
The sparrow is pecking at the hawk's tail, then a wing.
The hawk seems hardly aware that it is the prey, not the predator.
The sparrow is fierce and unrelenting.

I stopped to watch. Nature is so fascinating. I usually think of it as something to be observed,
not something I am a part of.

I was impressed with the little bird's courage. What would motivate the tiny sparrow
to take on the hawk. Her nest, of course, her babies, tucked somewhere in the trees.
I got all teary.

I was no longer an observer, I was the sparrow attacking the hawk, that is cancer.
Stay away from my nest, leave by baby alone. This is a fight you will not win.

Unlike the sparrow, I am not alone.
Doctors, nurses, researchers, a whol…

One Week/Una Semana

Long story short, the docs in Seattle agreed with my doc here, and we're good to go for June 2, 2008 to begin high dose chemo, and the Auto Stem Cell Transplant to follow. I feel pretty ok about it...there is still nothing in this world that I want to do less than go through this treatment, but I feel confident that it is the right step to take, and that I am doing what I need to do. The countdown begins...I'll be admitted next Monday.

Para no hacerles largo el cuento, les platico que los doctores en Seattle revisaron todo y estan de acuerdo con el doc de aquí, y estoy ya lista para el 2 de junio, 2008 para empezar la quimio de dosis alta, y el trasplante de células madre que sigue. Me siento más o menos bien con esto...aun no hay otra cosa que menos quiera hacer, pero me siento segura y ya sé definitivamente que esto es lo que necesito hacer. Y empieza el conteo...me internan de hoy en ocho días.

Caught/Atrapada

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My mom and I are heading up tonight to Seattle to Fred Hutchinson/Seattle Cancer Care Alliance (SCCA) for a second opinion appointment on Thursday. I decided that before I undergo this huge transplant treatment and procedure, I wanted to get a second opinion....just to be absolutely sure that this is what I need to be doing right now...that this is the absolute best thing to do for the best outcome. Though that’s such an odd thing to say…like what’s really the best outcome? Honestly, I can’t think of any outcome short of “100% cured forever” or “Cancer? Get outta here” (Seinfeld reference anyone?), that is really acceptable, let alone “the best”…I just can’t believe I have to do this. It’s so hard to imagine that this is really where I am in life…waiting, wishing these last few days were longer, to go through a grueling treatment that will really only give me a little over a 50% shot at living longer than 10 years without disease. That’s really fucked up. There’s no other way I know h…

On TV/En la tele

That's right...and I'm naked! Ok, not really naked, but for all you know I am. That's me on the massage table. Stupid cute curly short hair, I miss you.





This starts running today here in the Portland area on the major network channels, as well as some select cable channels. It was really fun to be a part of this commercial...it's like 2 seconds or less of me in the commercial, but it was fun and they gave me a gift certificate for a free massage!


Oh, and this is me too: http://www.providence.org/centerofhope/patient_stories.html


It's not my favorite picture of me, but it's ok...the camera guy was making me laugh. That's a genuine laugh, no acting.


Sipi, estoy saliendo en un comercial del hospital Providence en la tele....desnuda! Bueno, en realidad no estoy desnuda, pero eso no lo sabes tú...jeje. Esa del masaje soy yo, ¿cómo la ven? Pinche cabello ya me estaba creciendo bien bonito, míralo no más...chale, lo extraño un chingo.




Este comercial empezó a salir hoy …

Thank you/Gracias

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Last Wednesday night was the benefit my super great friends organized for me, and it was not only a financial success, but also a rockin’ good time. As you can see from the photo, I had pink hair for the night, and decided that my drink of choice would be the cosmopolitan ‘cause they are pretty tasty and matched the hue perfectly. Unfortunately, I had such a good time that I had more cosmopolitans than I can remember, and suffered an unfortunately severe hangover that precluded my attendance at work the following day, and involved an absurd amount of puking of all liquids from my poor, undeserving body. A word to the wise (and to the unfortunate enough to need this advice): chemotherapy does not, contrary to what I thought was infallible logic, prepare your body to better process other poisons…I have learned my lesson, and in the future will employ ginger caution with the booze.

The benefit was a huge success, and I’m so blown away by everyone’s generosity that I don’t really know what…